Five Years

Five years goes by fast. Its been five years since we walked to the river. You always said you wanted to sail the seven seas. I'm sorry, I'm so so so sorry that your body became a house for cancer. You were the most amazing man, in second in line to my father. I miss you more everyday. I sometimes think of how you would react to my problems, situations, and scenarios. I know you can't now. It was the saddest experience seeing pieces of your ashes float away and expand. Now it is just a memory of what was left of you. Its been five years since you watched the leafs loose as they usually do. Its been five years since we've eaten thai food. Its been five years since you've expanded your thoughts towards buddhism to me. Its been five years since you promised me to teach me to use chop sticks and I still refuse to learn how because you're not teaching me. Its been five years since I remember you dying in the comfort of your home, helpless, delirious and it still makes me cry everytime.