"I remember a summer's day
I remember walking up to you
I remember my face turned red
I remember staring at my feet
I remember before we met
I remember sitting next to you
I remember pretending I wasn't looking
So try and try even if it lasts an hour with all our might try and make it ours cause we're on our way we're on our way
I remember your old guitar
I remember I can't explain
I remember the way it looked around your neck and I remember the day it broke
I remember the song you sang
I remember the way you look tonight
I remember the way you made me feel we'll try and try even if it lasts an hour with all our might we'll try and make it ours cause we're on our way we're on our way to fall in love.
You'll try and try even if it lasts an hour
With all our might try and make it ours
cause we're on our way to fall in love.
yeah we're on our way to fall in love.
we're on our way to fall in love.
we're on our way to fall in love."
Our way to Fall - Yo le tengo

I have about 60 pages of reading to do in each of my courses right now, and I have 5 courses, if you're relatively good at math, you've consumed that this is a lot of fucking reading. After sitting in 2 consecutive lectures I have taken in a lot of knowledge today, so for now I am going to mindlessly ramble; because what else is there to do when your mind is rambling faster then you can ramble and scrambling faster then you can gather.

Currently, I keep spacing out about random subjects I have been thinking of. Like lacking deep human connections via the opposing sex. Not that I really could care less. I'm not going to attempt at conversing with boys worthy pursuing to fulfill my non-existing need for attention. I'm just looking for a strong friend base.

A number of things are pissing me off. An old childhood friend of mine has become a huge bitch. Just straight up rude to me, not the kind of friend I'm into having. If I wanted to be cut-off in mid sentence, and down-talked to I'd be living at home with my sister. Ya, this girl is annoying me just as much as my sister and thats saying something.

I've gotten to know a few pretty sweet girls who I can see evolving into true friend material. And I'd rather that, then be surrounded by phonies.

I just don't understand why bullying is still a trend that has ceased to die. Of course its fun to play around and be funny, but when someone leaves feeling like a lesser person, do you really feel satisfied with being a 'bully'? I don't know, I have discussed this issue with a new friend of mine, and we have come to the conclusion that bullies will be knocked off their horses and heads will deflate and maybe someday these individuals will be tolerable. But right now, I'm sincerely not down.

I've been feeling really uncomfortable in my skin lately, which has lead to me just not pursuing boys in general. I will have conversations with boys, but there is rarely any attraction or sparks or longing to continue the conversation. For example, right now I just re-read that sentence in hopes that it was un-true but I ended up thinking about the buffalo chicken I consumed yesterday at my cafeteria and how it almost turned me into a vegetarian. Then proceeded to think about the breakfast sausages I had this morning, and how much I enjoyed them.

See what I mean?
Mind-tangents.